JOURNAL | We Attract the Kind of Love We Think We Deserve

As a gay man, what are the top priorities that need to included on the "list"? Is it money/investments, relationships, health or maybe just being at peace with your self? Are we really just waiting for our eventual death or is it a must to chase after the things that would us happy even if it would cause stress and hardship?

Welcome to the start of a new life! Because life begins at 40. And what should we expect when you actually reach this milestone? Was the past 39 years enough to prepare you of what's to come? Now when I think about it, all that comes to mind is painful joints and acid reflux - which obviously comes with age.

It's funny how when a person grows older, the more "me-time" they require. They find comfort in solitude. Less hang ups, less bullshit. Besides, less saves you from headache. You realize that people are innately selfish and only interested in their own affairs. So why should we even bother with shit that has nothing to do with us? Why do people have the tendency to think that the world actually cares about them when in fact the world will go on even without us.

This idea of how grand the whole universe is and that we are mere microscopic beings in the whole scheme - and yet we feign that our problems are somehow bigger than everybody else, what a joke. Life as it is already complex enough, so why do we have to make it even more so. We always choose how things are gonna be - to choose or not to choose remains to be an act of choosing.

Oh and by the way, WE ATTRACT THE KIND OF LOVE WE THINK WE DESERVE. I mean the Universe only gives us what we focus our energy on, so be careful what you manifest. It may just come through.