JOURNAL | A Winner I Will Always Be

A Winner I Will Always Be

It has been a long time, I felt like I have slept long enough now. All the potentials and the talents have been concealed inside- Afraid to show them, that they mau not sustain. But just like a volcano, heated by the Earth's core It is now time to erupt, To show the real me. Show no mercy. Show no remorse. Whatever it takes to get to the finish line, let it happen because I wasn't born to fail. Lately things are not going my way. I try to be gentle towards others but they have been pushing me. I try to let others boss me around, feeling that it is better that way for I am considering their feelings- But in the process, I have been left behind. It was very tough to see the show from behind. I was born an achiever and an achiever I will be.

JOURNAL | The Victor

The Victor 

If you think you are beaten, you are. If you think you dare not, you don't. If you like to win but think you can't, It's a cinch you won't. If you think you'll lose, you've already lost. For out in the world we find Success begins with the fellow's will. It's all in the state of mind. If you think you are outclassed, you are. You've got to think high to rise You've got to be sure of yourself before You can ever win a prize. Life's battle don't a;ways go To the stronger or faster man. But soon or late, the man who wins Is the man who thinks he can.

JOURNAL | Re-Start

Re-Start

I'm beginning to panic again. This is exactly the same feeling I get when I was doing my internship. Each day seems to be so heavy I don't want to move anymore. But today proved to be a day of reckoning. I realized I should not let get defeated by this simple challenge. I've been through worse. I've been through more trying times. But I have all worn them out. I am a survivor. Nothing can put me down. Not even myself. All I have to do now is to be stronger. I can do this. I know I can.

JOURNAL | Down

Down

Lately, things are just taking their toll on me. All the pressure and stress seem like my sanity is going to collapse soon. I always feel like everyday is a gloomy day even if I try to convince myself that things are going to turn out fine. I'm not really asking much and not even trying to ask for something grand. All I wanted to happen to was that I finish this damn thesis. The problem being is that the thesis just won't finish that easily. This is simply hell. My last year is simply hell. Only months away from graduation and I feel so weak. I want to go out. Escape even just for a short while. I want to forget that I am haunted by all these responsibilities. What hope is there for me?

JOURNAL | Stressed, as usual

Stressed, as usual

I don't know but things this semester seem to repeat itself. I am starting to feel that this mighht even be harsher than the previous one. Totally no sleep now for the past two weeks. No time for a decent meal. Plus I notice that I don't really earn anything. I am getting poorer by the day. I am getting older too. When I look at the mirror these days, all I see are the black circles- circles around my eyes. I feel dizzy now as I write this. The files in my laptop too are waiting to be transfered. The room remains to be a challenge as my room mate keep playing his loud music. I want to be out. I want to be left alone.