JOURNAL | With eyes drooping

With eyes drooping

My Lord I am so tired. I won't ever chat with -a- again. This is seriously killing me. I'm losing time, money, and health but I don't get anything in return except for droopy eyes. When I get back home, I'll take a bath, drink milk, brush teeth and sleep. I need to rest today.

JOURNAL | Colors… what with the fetish?

Colors… what with the fetish?

Attending Sunday mass today, I glanced upon these messages around the church,

JOURNAL | Christmas Eve

Christmas Eve

It's Christmas eve. Boss had an accident when I arrived at the office. What a time to have stitches. So sad. It's only a couple of hours before Christmas comes but I feel like I have not prepared well for this season. No gifts, no nothing. But what can I do when I'm facing poverty this time. I know it is difficult but it is just temporary. I'll get over this soon. To be exact, I'll be over this next when year when I can finally find a job that would enable me to save lots of money so I can travel to Korea and perhaps to Europe too. The road is not easy but I'll manage.

CORPORATE | There he goes again

There he goes again

This is getting serious. BK's offline again. It's like we're not taking this business seriously. Darn, getting up at 4am is not something youu can just ignore. And I am so pissed off. My head's swinging now after sleeping for an hour and I bet I'll be dozing the rest of the day but I still have to meet Neo later. Arrgghhh.

JOURNAL | Irritated

Irritated

Perhaps Saturday's failure to get enough sleep plus Sunday's walking/ drinking with Korean friends made me so irritated today. Every single noise from the tricycle's loud whirring to people's above the decibel's voices just makes me wanna shout or run away. It's just too much to take. I'm still sleepy and groggy, how bad can that get. Anyway, I just checked LiveJournal and I think it is better than blosgpot in terms of its designs so soon I'll be moving my entries from blogspot to the other. Too bad blogspot has only a limited types of skins. Too boring.

CORPORATE | Chatting at 5am

Chatting at 5am

He's offline when I am not The only reason why I forced my logic to have an internet is because my student BK wants to have a class with me. Now I am thinking about it now whether my decision has been worth it. I think it's not healthy anymore. I am toiling at the expense of my health. I'll be discussing more about this next week, if things still doesn't go the way I planned it then I think I should just terminate this. International friend I have an American friend whom I met through the internet. His name's Frank and we corresponded this day. He's now here in the Philippines staying in Makati and I might meet him and introduce the Philippines to him, at least Manila. [Damn, I'm hungry now. Gotta go at 9am]

JOURNAL | Determined

Determined

I am determined to make things right for me. As he have said, "I'll get filthy rich..." So would I. I'll do everything in my ability to learn and use my knowledge to my advantage. Things will only be right for me if I fight for it. The most important thing for me right now is to fulfill my plan which is - learning the three most difficult languages in the world which are Korean, Chinese, and Japanese. I am now starting with Korean and I have already started with a little Chinese. It's not really going to be easy for me but I am determined to take on this challenge. I know I can do this and once I do then the world is going to be under my hands. I'll conquer myself.

JOURNAL | Am back

Am back

At the office, we are expected to do what we are supposed to do. But knowing myself, the ever lazy me, I could not perform my tasks. Like now, instead of doing my evauations for, my students I am blogging my mundane thoughts. When I get back home, I'll be struggling against whether to watch porn or not. But I don't wanna fall for that again. I've had enough, so much time wasted. So much things left aside. There's one thing I want to change in my life and that is - to be more diligent. I miss the old me when I always give things my best shot. Guess the old me is better. Darn.

JOURNAL | So many things to do, so little time

So many things to do, so little time

10:58pm
 SBE office- like I'm writing some sort of script but this is far more than a fiction story. It's a real story. I feel so confused with all that I need to finish in my life. I feel like 24 hours is not enough anymore to get things done. But, here I go again, back to work. Till later.

JOURNAL | Heavy

Heavy

C'mon, it's starting again. 7:15pm Just like last sem, things are beginning to be so tough. I feel like I couldn't handle them anymore, but I've always been this way. Always loving the pain, the suffering for the absence of it makes the situation all the more weird. Like I'm not existing. There was once a day that everything seemed so placid, then I started to panic because there was something wrong. My life can never be peaceful, if it was then it's not my life anymore. I just pray to God that He sends me more strength and get through all these. It's a little bit heavy on my back so I'm really trying to be strong.