JOURNAL | Korean Speech

Korean Speech

My speech in Korean is coming very soon, as in really soon (three days) but I haven't polished my speech yet. I don't know what's going to happen but I really want to win the first prize but the question is how. God, how?

LIFESTYLE | 박지헌

박지헌

Park Ji Hun, a member of popular R&B group VOS, recently entered the music scene as a soloist with a single "On Days I Miss You." This single later came to hit No. 1 on all online sites and charts.

LIFESTYLE | 박지헌

Park Ji Hoon

LIFESTYLE | 박지헌

박지헌... 너를 보고싶은 날엔

LIFESTYLE | 박지헌

내 한국인 가수.... 박지헌.

JOURNAL | I'm so down

I'm so down

Well, I'm supposed to be in dreamland by now but what I have to write simply cannot wait. I'm so depressed because I didn't make it to the Korean speech contest. What happened I just understand why? I wanted to win here badly I've sacrificed so many things but still in the end was nothing but frustration. I just can't accept this failure. My feeling is a mixture of anger, disappointment, regret. There's really no way now. I've already planned everything but here I am, lost and confused. Maybe all I need is a good sleep and I'll be okay tomorrow.
I just want to say sorry to all the people who believed in me but I only downed. I'm such a failure and I can't forgive myself for being a loser.
This always happens to me. I always end up being hurt in the end but I never learn. I never learn.
Before I just wanted a simple life. But now that I've tasted a little of that good life then things started to change. Simple life is a thing of the past already. I am now in search of greener future. Now I've become a dreamer and these dreams keep on eating me everyday. There's no stopping until I achieve them all. Yes I'm destined to greatness that's why God made me this way. Resilient to disappointment, proven by my masochistic search for pain.
I am hurting again because I feel so incomplete. Why can't language be my talent? Why can't I speak well? I've turned away from French thinking I may not master it. I've come close to Korean but nothing has really changed. I'm still stupid. I'm so down.

TRAVEL | I Said Goodbye To My Fantasy

This is the day I finally bid Korea goodbye. It's as if I've lost my drive to go back when there's really no big reason aside from meeting my friends again. I've made my promises and I am bound to break them. I think this is really not the time for me go back when I have some unsettled things here in the Philippines. Although I'm not closing doors. I am still planning to go back although when I don't know. Only time can tell. For the meantime, I have some academics to finish and some friends to look after. Life doesn't have to end here. There will still be more other opportunities. Cheer up.