JOURNAL | TOOTHACHE and EFFORT

TOOTHACHE and EFFORT

February 21, 2008
Thursday
Edward's house

6:03

Edward and his father were supposed to go to the fitness club today but because of my aching tooth and my need to see a dentist, they cancelled it. On the way to the Ä¡°ú dentist's office, thoughts run through my mind. I have expected of losing my molar, then the pain of it which could go on for a week, then the horror of ruining the alignment of my upper set of teeth. Just couldn't bear it but when the dentist treated me, he merely placed a fill in my decaying molar. All the while, I was holding on to my breath because he might touch the flesh and I know how painful it can get. It's just good that it didn't happen. I am quite okay now though the pain still remains.


After the meeting with the dentist, I went to the library to study. But it turned out I was so groggy I just can't stand studying. My eyes were drooping like I didn't sleep last night when in fact I was drugged to sleep by the mefenamic acid I took due to the seering pain I experienced last night.

I was on the 5th floor, half asleep when I heard somebody mentioned my name. When I stood to see who it was, I saw Isabel and Ginny with Angie. I went down to meet them. At this moment, I know something's happening to me. Like I was experiencing some kind of allergic reaction plus aching tooth plus aching body. Oh, it's really unbearable. I almost wished I was dead.

I just realized that you can never tell Isabel any secret because she has this habit of telling other people what she knows about you. To add insult to injury, she uses these secrets to damage a person's credibility like it is really nothing. She just doesn't have prudence that's all. So, I am careful enough not to do the same mistakes of telling her important things which she has no reason to know in the first place. But now she's telling me she hates me because I'm not telling her my secrets. She sounds like it's my responsibility to update her with my life. I didn't ask her to share her lifestory with me so just let me be. I'll never make the same mistake. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.

6:41

I am trying to study Korean but I haven't gone very far from where I started. I am still struggling to learn a few words and hopefully string meanigful sentences. Take note, meaningful coz as of now, the only things I can do is mumble words and keep my fingers crossed that the person I'm talking to makes sense with what I'm trying to send across. Anyway, as Lao Tzu puts it, "a journey of a thousand miles begins with one step." Good luck to my steps. I hope I don't fall.